sun kissed
6(2) sun kissed
the top of my hand has been kissed by the sun
the top of my hand is now brown
my palm white.
A seasonal feature, as in the long winter, I become white.
I am brown/ and I am white
but I am not white
and I am not brown
I am status Indian
I am 6(2)
two brackets that harbour identity, doubt, sadness, and (in)validity
but two brackets that do not restrict love, culture, or spirit
when I was young I clung to spf 50 because I knew I would turn brown
and I knew what it meant to be brown
to be native
drunk
lazy
stupid
inferior
lesser than
so desperately wanting to be white - to be accepted.
When I was 24 I longed for the sun.
for my skin to be kissed by the sun.
To turn the brown of my ancestors
the brown of my spirit
the brown of acceptance
the brown of legitimacy
I am not white/ and I am not brown/
but everyday I am more grounded in the knowledge that I am Algonquin /white nor brown can take that away from me/
I have been kissed by the sun